If there's one thing I have leaned about grief, its that it always surprises me, disappearing one minute, returning with a vengeance another. Sometimes it surfaces in tears, other times in anger, I dont understand......the smallest trigger, a similar laugh, a song or a piece of music, a place you go to or drive past, and in an instant it feels like you are flung into a time machine and transported back to that moment when time stood still, we were together and you were standing next to me.